I am not sure what I am going to write about today.
There is no title yet when I start writing this.
I feel kind of “normal”, I have more of those “ I feel normal” days lately.
Only very tired, and thinking a lot about what needs to change.
Some things are just too much for me right now.
I should get rid of one dog, I have 2 German shepherds, both pull on the leash a bit.
So now they do all their “stuff” on the balcony, which I clean again, but walking with the dogs rarely happens. It is just too much.
But getting rid of one dog, only the thought already makes me sad, but it would be better for the dog and for me.
With the kids/adults I agreed that things are going to change.
Instead of living in a hotel with mom as their maid, it is going to be 4 adults living in a house together.
I have had it, yes I am their mom, yes I have to take care of them, but until what age?
Yes on alla ges, but there is a limit, and I think I reached it.
When I was 17, I lived on my own and had to take care of myself.
So I think it is time fort hem to start cooking, cleaning , doing the laundry and so on.
They need to be able to take care of themselves.
And so far I failed in teaching them how to do that.
I am a mom with a few basic rules; I am in favor of discovering life.
I think I am an “easy” mom compared to others.
As long as they are honest and tell me where they are, they can do a lot.
Be a “kid” for as long as possible, all that serious adult stuff is going to take long enough.
We do talk about how I think about things and why, why they do things and how they think about them. But I let them make their own decisions as much as possible.
And so far this way of upbringing gave me 3 great kids, all being themselves, being their own individual, no clone of their parents.
All 3 have their own clear opinion about things, and I think this is the way it should be.
But are they taking care of themselves? Not really.
Taking responsibility? Not really.
I hate schedules and making plans.
But I think it is needed, so I can get more rest.
It is time for myself and what I want.
May be that’s a nice title; “Time for Myself”.